Sunday, April 05, 2026

I Have a Bad Feeling About This: My Unexpected Switch to Warhammer 40K and What It Says About Star Wars and Star Trek

This post is written for anyone who still keeps one eye on the state of science fiction in movies and television. If you have followed Star Wars or Star Trek even casually in the last decade, you will probably find something here worth your time. If you could not care less about sci-fi, feel free to skip it. No hard feelings.

Some friends asked why I quietly traded my old Star Wars fandom for Warhammer 40K. At first I had not given the switch much thought. Once I sat down to unpack it, the reason surprised even me. It was not burnout or boredom. The stories I once loved simply stopped feeling like the stories I once loved.

Let me take you back. In the mid to late 1980s through the mid-1990s I was a solid Star Wars geek, above casual but well short of convention-cosplay level. I owned a handful of action figures and vehicles. Then life handed me the perfect side gig. In the mid-1990s I took a seasonal job at Bookstar in Woodland Hills. For those who never worked book retail, here is the dirty little secret: unsold books do not usually go back to the publisher. They get de-booked by slicing off the cover. The rest becomes landfill or employee swag. The back room was basically a library of current releases with their faces missing.

I made a beeline for the Star Wars Expanded Universe paperbacks. The Thrawn Trilogy, the Black Fleet Crisis, Tales from the Mos Eisley Cantina, Tales of the Bounty Hunters, and the Han Solo Adventures. I devoured them. They came out at a nice steady pace, so I could keep up without feeling buried. Those books expanded the galaxy in ways the films only hinted at. Mara Jade, the politics of the New Republic, and the sense that life continued after the credits rolled. It felt lived-in.

Then the publishers got greedy. Jedi Academy, the X-Wing series, the Hand of Thrawn duology, and half a dozen other lines all dropped at once. I had just started college, so time became a luxury I no longer had. I stepped away for a bit.

The prequels brought me back. I will not pretend the writing sparkled, but George Lucas kept the universe consistent. You could see the connective tissue. Star Wars in general stayed relatively quiet for a while. Looking back, that quiet period might have been a mercy.

Then Lucas sold the franchise to Disney. At first there was cautious optimism, even after Kathleen Kennedy took the reins. The first big misstep landed immediately. Disney announced it would ignore the entire Expanded Universe to create its own continuity. That single decision told longtime fans that their emotional investment no longer counted. The new owners valued a fresh start more than the loyalty of the existing audience. In hindsight, it was a huge blinking early warning sign.

I decided right then to dial my own investment way down. If the owners were willing to toss out large parts of the story I cared about, I would keep my attachment minimal. That turned out to be fortunate. What followed under Kennedy felt less like an expansion of the saga and more like a framework for something else entirely.

To see the full picture I also need to mention Star Trek. I never loved it the way some people did. It always felt a little too polished for my tastes. Still, I respected Gene Roddenberry’s ambition. He created it during the Cold War and imagined a future where humanity got its act together. That alone earned my respect.

My interest clicked with The Next Generation. The writing carried a hopeful future even as it raised the stakes with villains like the Borg and Q. Deep Space Nine added depth by turning the show into frontier Casablanca in space, full of intrigue and moral gray areas, yet the good guys still tried to be better. Voyager and Enterprise kept the same basic tone: decent people trying to do the right thing. The Prime Directive stood as a real principle, not a suggestion.

That brings me to the present. I have largely stepped away from new Star Wars and Star Trek releases. The reactions to announcements have become more entertaining than the shows themselves. My real enthusiasm now lives in the grim darkness of the far future where there is only war.

I had actually been introduced to Warhammer 40K back in the early 1980s by a friend, but at the time it felt more like a quirky oddity than a serious setting. Even among fans the early version came across as a bit goofy, a strange blend of far-future warfare and religious fanaticism with clear satirical elements. The developers themselves have admitted in interviews that it started as kind of a joke.

Over the decades Games Workshop refined the lore, tightened consistency, and dramatically improved the visuals. When I circled back many years later, it hit me at exactly the right moment as Star Wars and Star Trek were losing their way. I started tentatively with Dawn of War and Space Marine, figuring I would just dip my toe in. Before long I was fully immersed.

I will admit the tabletop game itself is not really for me. Moving static little figurines around requires too much imagined bad-assery on my part. I have to picture entire epic battles in my head, and that kind of mental heavy lifting is not my style for something that would occupy a good chunk of my time. Space Marine 2 and Dawn of War hit the sweet spot perfectly. They deliver real-time action and visceral brutality without forcing me to do all the imagining myself.

The more I understood the lore (big shout to Majorkill videos), the more I appreciated how unapologetically consistent the setting remained. The Imperium of Man is flawed, brutal, and often monstrous, yet it knows exactly what it is. There is no pretense that the galaxy is suddenly fair or that every faction deserves equal sympathy. Choices have brutal permanent consequences. Loyalty matters. Sacrifice matters. And the universe does not care about your feelings. Compared to the constant course corrections and identity-focused rewrites in recent Star Wars and Star Trek, 40K felt refreshingly honest. It did not try to lecture me. It simply existed on its own terms.

Star Trek, Star Wars, and Warhammer 40K once sat on a clear spectrum. At their heights each franchise knew exactly what it was, and that clarity helped them build loyal audiences for decades.

Star Trek offered a hopeful future in which humanity had moved past its worst impulses. Nations no longer fought one another, and old enemies could, with time and reason, become friends or at least respectful neighbors. Gene Roddenberry envisioned a world where humanity had solved many of its earthly problems and turned its attention outward. The heroes were largely squeaky clean, making mistakes that usually stemmed from good intentions or understandable human flaws. Villains were often conniving and somewhat obvious in their evil, though a few had sympathetic goals that still led them clearly down the wrong path. The Prime Directive stood as a genuine principle, demanding respect for other cultures even when interference would have been easier. At its best the show celebrated competence, exploration, and the belief that rational beings could solve problems through diplomacy, science, and shared values. Captain Kirk embodied decisive leadership mixed with intellectual curiosity and physical courage, while Picard brought calm reason and moral clarity. Crews solved problems through expertise in science, engineering, medicine, and tactics on a merit-based hierarchy where rank came from skill rather than identity. Episodes focused on the thrill of discovery, the tension of first contact, or the difficult choice between non-interference and saving lives. It was about outward expansion, rational analysis, and heroic agency in the face of an indifferent or hostile universe.

Star Wars gave us something different but equally distinctive: a lived-in universe crafted by George Lucas. The original trilogy delivered grand adventures set in a dirty, used-future galaxy where ships looked beat-up, planets had distinct personalities, and life continued after the big battles. You could believe people actually lived there, raising families, running shops, and arguing about politics. The good guys were mostly good, with room for a few lovable rogues like Han Solo, who shot first and asked questions later, and Lando Calrissian, who betrayed his friends under pressure but earned a redemption arc that felt earned. Good characters could be tempted strongly by the dark side. Luke Skywalker began as a restless farm boy on Tatooine dreaming of something greater, rose through trials involving ancient technologies, mystical training, daring rescues, and epic space battles, and ultimately stared into the abyss on the second Death Star yet still chose the light. The struggle between light and dark carried mythic weight. The Force was a spiritual power that rewarded discipline, focus, and moral courage. The story reveled in tactical ingenuity and mechanical wonder. The Millennium Falcon was a beat-up hunk of junk that still outflew TIE fighters because its pilot and mechanic knew every bolt and wire. Lightsabers felt like learnable skills. Han Solo added roguish competence and quick thinking under pressure. The Rebel Alliance showed ordinary people using strategy and sacrifice to topple tyranny. For many viewers these films tapped into the satisfaction of mastering difficult systems, overcoming impossible odds, and uncovering hidden knowledge in forgotten ruins or ancient orders.

Warhammer 40K took the opposite end of the scale with its unrelenting grimdark tone. Everything is bad and nothing is one hundred percent pure. Even the closest thing to good guys, the Imperium of Man, is a bloated, xenophobic, theocratic empire in decay, locked in eternal war. The Salamanders might come closest to genuine heroism, yet even they must operate where pragmatism often trumps idealism. The good guys are forced to make hard choices because they cannot save everyone. The bad guys are bad because they made terrible decisions and refuse to accept the consequences. Chaos offers shortcuts to power, but those shortcuts always end in corruption and ruin. The far future offers no easy hope. The universe is vast, indifferent, and hostile. Survival demands discipline, strategy, and collective resolve. Loyalty, honor, competence, and meaningful sacrifice for something larger than yourself sit at the center of the appeal. Those who act on genuine moral principle when cold pragmatism would counsel otherwise often pay a heavy price. A good and honorable death that advances the survival of humanity or the Imperium carries profound weight. Disloyalty invites fates far worse than death, and honorable souls lost to treachery are avenged with brutal finality. In this setting competence is not suspect. It is essential. Hierarchy earned through merit keeps the Imperium functioning against impossible odds. The thrill of charting dangerous frontiers and confronting existential threats still exists, but it comes wrapped in stoic endurance rather than wide-eyed optimism. The setting does not apologize for its grim tone. It simply leans into it.

These three properties succeeded for different reasons, but they shared one important trait: they respected their own guiding principles. They did not constantly second-guess what made them unique. They trusted their core identity and let the stories flow from there.

Classic science fiction, at its strongest, spoke to something wired deep in the human psyche. It invited audiences to explore the unknown, confront vast challenges, and imagine pushing the boundaries of human capability. That pull felt especially strong for many men, though it was never exclusively a male domain. Plenty of women have always genuinely enjoyed these stories for the very same reasons: the thrill of discovery, intellectual rigor, technical mastery, and heroic competence in the face of cosmic-scale challenges. They did not need the source material altered to emphasize classic interpersonal drama or emotional introspection in order to connect with it. In fact, most women who loved classic sci-fi appreciated it precisely because it focused on bold exploration, rational problem-solving, and individual excellence rather than reshaping the genre to fit more traditionally feminine storytelling sensibilities. Hollywood’s later attempts to do exactly that often resulted in losing the broad existing audience while failing to attract a large new one, since hard science fiction and grand space opera were never domains that most typical women naturally gravitated toward in large numbers. Think of the way kids naturally gravitate toward building things, figuring out how complex systems work, or testing their limits against imaginary foes. Sci-fi simply scaled those instincts up to galactic size. The appeal crossed gender lines without needing forced lectures. Characters like Uhura, who earned her place through skill, and Leia Organa, a sharp-witted leader who strategized rebellions through merit and resolve, resonated because they contributed real value to the mission. Even Warhammer 40K has its Sisters of Battle (AKA "nuns with guns.) The stories valued individual excellence and rational problem-solving over interpersonal drama as the main driver.

What tied all three franchises together in their classic forms was coherence. The universes felt consistent. Characters behaved in ways that made sense within their worlds. Moral questions had weight because right and wrong were not treated as entirely subjective. Heroes faced real temptation and sometimes stumbled, but the stories usually pointed toward growth or redemption. Villains made understandable choices that still led them down wrong paths. Audiences could invest emotionally because the rules stayed steady. You knew what the franchises stood for.

None of these approaches required perfection. Star Trek could be preachy at times. Star Wars could lean on coincidence and mystical destiny. Warhammer 40K can feel overwhelmingly bleak. Yet each stayed true to its central promise. That consistency built trust with audiences. Fans knew what they were getting when they picked up a book, turned on an episode, or sat down for a movie.

The shift away from these strengths did not happen by accident. Decision-makers at Disney and Paramount consciously set aside the guiding principles that had defined their franchises for decades. In their place they installed serialized personal drama, unearned moral ambiguity, and heroes who seemed more interested in therapy sessions than in saving the galaxy. Under Kathleen Kennedy, Star Wars moved away from kids films with redemptive arcs and the lived-in galaxy George Lucas built. The new approach treated the mythic struggle between light and dark as outdated. Heroes gained flaws that felt injected rather than grown through actual struggle. Villains were reframed as misunderstood products of broken systems, turning conflict into lectures about society rather than personal accountability. 

Star Trek under Alex Kurtzman followed a parallel path. The hopeful Federation ideal gave way to fractured crews defined more by interpersonal grievances and identity than by professional excellence. Exploration and rational diplomacy took a back seat to emotional catharsis and heavy-handed social commentary. The Prime Directive sometimes felt like an inconvenient relic. Plots that once celebrated competence and outward expansion now felt smaller and more cynical.

This reinvention was sold as necessary evolution. Yet the changes often felt ham-fisted. The “modern audience” became the fictional construct used to justify the leftward turn. Executives imagined viewers who demanded their particular ideals reflected back without challenge. In practice this meant bending plots, characters, and themes to fit a narrow set of viewpoints. Storytelling stopped trusting the audience to draw its own conclusions and instead delivered sermons wrapped in space battles. In reality this promised new demographic never arrived in sufficient numbers. Viewers who might have been open to fresh takes still expected the core promises of the franchises to be kept. When those promises were broken or diluted, casual fans simply moved on while the dedicated old guard quietly reduced their engagement.

It is the kind of approach that makes you chuckle in hindsight. Executives bet big that a shiny new demographic would flood in if only the franchises looked sufficiently up-to-date. They ignored the simple fact that the audiences who made these properties cultural giants were showing up for adventure, wonder, competence, and moral stakes that felt real.

The data bears this out. Star Wars on Disney+ enjoyed huge peaks with The Mandalorian Season 2. Later series like The Acolyte posted some of the lowest sustained viewership numbers, with rapid drop-offs. Disney scaled back plans to roughly one live-action series per year. Star Trek under Kurtzman saw new shows generate early interest followed by quick declines. Starfleet Academy struggled and is being cancellation due to ratings. Doctor Who embraced the same approach and watched its audience shrink to fractions of previous seasons. 

Warhammer 40K offers a useful contrast. The setting briefly flirted with similar territory when Games Workshop introduced female Adeptus Custodes in the 2024 Codex and claimed they had always existed. The backlash was swift and vocal from parts of the fanbase who saw it as an unnecessary retcon. Unlike Disney or Paramount, Games Workshop did not expand the change aggressively across multiple factions or storylines. They kept it largely contained to the Custodes, released supporting models in 2026, and have since refocused on delivering content for their dedicated hobbyist base. That relatively measured approach likely helped them avoid the kind of widespread audience abandonment that Star Wars and Star Trek experienced. Good on them for reading the room and not pushing the issue further than necessary.

The pattern is clear: when a franchise fully commits to the reinvention playbook, the broad audience does not expand. It contracts.

The audience was never opposed to change or new voices. It is just that those characters, like all the others, are required to earn their place through competence, not have it bestowed because of their identity. 

What fans resist is the sense that the franchises were being rewritten from the ground up to serve purposes unrelated to their original DNA.

Other properties remind us that audiences still respond enthusiastically to lived-in worlds, pragmatic characters, and moral complexity grounded in real stakes. 

Firefly created a tight-knit crew of likable, flawed characters who operated as the good guys at heart. Jayne Cobb’s gradual redemption arc grew organically from shared dangers and quiet loyalty rather than sermonizing. 

The Expanse delivered hard-edged realism, intricate politics, believable technology, and characters who solved problems through intelligence and engineering skill rather than lectures. 

Both shows honored the timeless appeals of competence, camaraderie, and principled struggle that made earlier Star Trek and Star Wars so enduring.

Warhammer 40K never chased the invented viewer. Its grimdark tone holds firm. Loyalty, honor, competence, and meaningful sacrifice define its appeal. This consistency has paid off. Games Workshop has reported steady revenue growth and an expanding core community even while Star Wars and Star Trek hemorrhaged viewers. In a media landscape full of constant course corrections, that honesty feels refreshing. Fans know what they are getting, and they keep showing up. (However, if Amazon screws this up.....)

People remain deeply hungry for good science fiction that recaptures bold exploration, competence, moral clarity, and human striving against the cosmos. Audiences do not need perfection. They need consistency. They need stories that trust them to follow along without constant hand-holding or moral updates. They need universes that feel lived-in and characters whose arcs grow naturally from the world.

Star Wars and Star Trek are not failing because they tried to reinvent themselves. They are struggling because they forgot what their guiding principles were. They chased a fictional modern audience at the expense of the hopeful vision and mythic heroism that once defined them. The data reflects the cost of that choice.

The path forward is not complicated: remember the core promises. 

For Star Wars that means restoring mythic heroism, earned redemption, and a galaxy that feels vast and lived-in. 

For Star Trek it means recapturing hopeful unity, merit-based competence, and rational exploration. 

Evolution is fine. Course corrections are healthy. But setting aside the soul of the franchise to chase trends that have already proven unsuccessful is a recipe for continued disappointment.

Warhammer 40K knows no fear because it refused to make the same trade. 

Firefly and The Expanse show that the hunger for authentic sci-fi is still there. 

Audiences will show up when storytelling respects its own guiding principles instead of bending to a demographic that exists mainly in marketing presentations.

The lesson for creators and executives is straightforward. Tell the story you promised. Keep the soul intact. Celebrate competence without embarrassment. Allow moral stakes that feel real. Trust the audience instead of lecturing it. The franchises that remember these basics will find the broad coalition of fans still waiting. The ones that keep running from their own DNA will keep wondering why the seats stay empty.

So here is my quiet hope. Maybe one day the people steering these ships will look at the data and decide to steer back toward what made their properties special. Until then I will keep ripping up Tyrannids in Space Marine 2, listening to Jonathan Keeble read the latest tome of galaxy-spanning Ultramarines in grizzly engagements, and enjoying the grim darkness of the far future.

Because in the end consistency matters. Principles matter. And sometimes the simplest lesson is the hardest one for big corporations to learn: if you forget what made people love your story in the first place, do not be surprised when they quietly walk away and find something else that still speaks their language.

May the Force be with you, or the Emperor protect you, whichever feels more honest these days. And if the mood strikes, go dig up one of the old Expanded Universe novels or give a Warhammer 40K audiobook a try. Whether you crave mythic hope or grimdark endurance, the best stories are still the ones that stay true to what they promised.


Friday, December 05, 2025

Why Christians Must Support America Supporting Israel – My Thoughts

 This post has been itching in the back of my mind for a while now, and I think I need to release it to see how people react.

I’m noticing a sharp increase in antisemitism lately—and surprisingly, some of it is coming from Republicans and self-described conservatives. That troubles me deeply.What that tells me is one of two things:
  1. Republican Christian conviction is lower in their priority than their patriotism/nationalism, or
  2. They don’t actually profess Christian faith at all.
For the second group, I really have no argument with you. You have no scriptural basis of commonality with my perspective, and I can understand why you might not see the necessity to support Israel—except that they remain the only functioning democracy and beacon of rationality in the entire Middle East.But for those who do claim the name of Christ, let me lay out why biblical Christians have no option but to actively support Israel—and why that includes wanting our nation to stand firmly with her.
  1. God’s promise to Abraham in Genesis 12:3 has no expiration date and no conditions attached once it was spoken:
    “I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you.”
    This was an unconditional, unilateral, everlasting covenant. It wasn’t a two-way contract that Israel could void by disobedience. It was God declaring what He would do to anyone who blesses or curses Abraham’s physical descendants through Isaac and Jacob. That promise still stands today.
  2. Look at modern Israel’s history—it is littered with outright miraculous victories that defy military explanation:
    • 1948 War of Independence: 650,000 Jews vs. 5 invading Arab armies—Israel wins and actually expands territory.
    • Six-Day War (1967): Pre-emptive strike, but Israel destroys the air forces of Egypt, Jordan, and Syria on the ground in hours, then captures the Sinai, Golan Heights, Judea, Samaria, and Jerusalem in 6 days.
    • Yom Kippur War (1973): Surrounded, caught off guard on a holy day, yet Israel turns utter defeat into victory in weeks.
    • Countless terrorist wars and intifadas where missile attacks that should have killed thousands are stopped by inexplicable “malfunctions” or wind shifts (ask any IDF soldier about the “Hand of God” stories).
      This is the same theme of divine providence we see throughout Scripture. God keeps preserving this otherwise tiny, surrounded nation against impossible odds.
  3. Even when Israel was unfaithful and sent into exile, God still judged the nations that treated His people cruelly:
    • Babylon: Used by God to punish Judah, but then destroyed because they were excessively cruel (Isaiah 47:6; Zechariah 1:15).
    • Assyria: “I will punish the king of Assyria for the willful pride of his heart and the haughty look in his eyes” after he boasted against God’s people (Isaiah 10:12–19).
    • Egypt: Multiple judgments for mistreating Israel (Ezekiel 29–32).
    • Edom/Obadiah: Completely wiped out as a people for rejoicing over Judah’s calamity (Obadiah 1:10–15).
      God has a track record: He can discipline His own people Himself, but nations that curse or gloat over Israel get visited with severe judgment.
Some will say, “Well, I personally support Israel, I just don’t want my tax dollars or my government involved.”
My response: That’s like saying, “I personally will bless you, but I’m fine if my entire nation curses you.”
According to Genesis 12:3, the promise and the warning are corporate as well as individual. If you bless Israel, God blesses you. If your nation curses or abandons Israel, don’t be surprised when national blessings dry up. Personal support is good—national support is what actually moves the covenant needle.
Christian, you don’t have to agree with every policy of the modern Israeli government (neither do most Israelis). But standing with Israel’s right to exist and defend itself in its ancestral homeland is not politics—it’s biblical fidelity.“I will bless those who bless you.”
The promise still stands.
Let’s not find ourselves on the wrong side of it—personally or nationally.
Thoughts?

Wednesday, July 06, 2022

The sad conclusion to a hit piece.

So, I finished listening to @christianitytoday 's "Rise and fall of Mars Hill" a few days ago, and I have to say, they are definitely living up to their name.

They are focused on Christianity as it exists today, rather than the timeless, inerrant Word of God.  In fact, one sound bite they chose to include was something to the effect of:  "When you believe the word is inerrant, Mars Hill is the inevitable result", then gave no pushback.

Christianity Today used Mark Driscoll and Mars Hill as a hit-piece to bash evangelicals, complementarianism, and conservatives while promoting deconstructionism, progressives, and feminism.  Their use of music was not subtle.  Whenever talking about Driscoll and the things he believes in, it's all minor keys.  

I laughed when they brought in the author of "Jesus Feminist" to give her opinion.  Like she was going to say anything like, "You know, I can see both sides."

Cultish had an interesting teardown of the podcast here (special thanks to @andrew for bringing it to my attention):  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7M3p8mRmJIc

and here:

https://thecultishshow.com/podcast/mark-driscoll-cult-of-personality

In it, there a few things of note:

1)  The only scripture in the entire series up to that point was when they pulled a Driscoll soundbite.  None of the points of accusation referenced anything of a scriptural shortcoming.  Their entire condemnation of Driscoll was done with current cultural mores that they feel he violated.

2)  Christianity Today has a real problem with war metaphors as Driscoll used them.  This is despite the extensive use of war metaphors in the New Testament.  

Now, I do agree with some aspects of their depiction of Driscoll; however, as they stated in their podcast, why should we focus on any of the good stuff when there are people bleeding?  In a similar vein, why should I focus on any of the things I agree with them on when they are wrong on others?

This is just conjecture on my part, but I suspect that the concept of a Jesus that is either a baby, a willowy hippy, or hanging on the cross is their preferred image of The Christ.  Their version of Christ is someone they could beat, so they don't have respect for Him.  They can give lip service to the New Testament, but can talk around it because they don't really feel the need to be put under His authority.  The concept of Jesus as a strong man frightens them, because they might have to pay attention to EVERYTHING he said.

Without this fear, they selectively pull from verses about being at peace and love, while ignoring the verses about removing those that claim Christianity but walk a different lifestyle.  They can also not envision the terrifying image of Jesus violently removing the people that had desecrated His Father's house.  

Jesus famously said that if anyone caused one of His little ones to stumble, it would be better for them to have a millstone tied around their neck and plunged into the ocean.  

Christianity Today does this throughout the podcast by treating deconstruction as just another kind of walk a Christian can take.  I think the most telling is in the closing episode, where they refer to some of Driscoll's former parishioners as "Embrac[ing] a life without faith", rather than the tragedy of people having lost their faith.  I think Jesus' words were specifically intended for the makers of this podcast.

Saturday, July 28, 2018

Review of "An Antidote for Chaos"

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So in the past few weeks, driving between work and home, I've been listening to Dr. Jordan Peterson's "Antidote for Chaos: 12 rules for life."

Despite the self-help-y title of the name, it actually is a fairly interesting read, especially from a Christian perspective.

It is better read as the attempt by a doctor to quantify and summate his observations over many years of clinical practice rather than something he postulates for the purposes of publishing.

As detailed in the foreward, each rule was initially posted online until a publisher asked him to take each "rule" and expand upon it. He discovered that he had a lot more to say on each one, and developed an essay for them, going into the history of that observance, relative academic work, his own clinical experiences, etc.

There is a fair amount of religious imagery in the book, most (but not all) coming from the Bible. In those instances, he pulls a number of things together that I thought were interesting:
  • He weaves a narrative that, even if the Bible isn't true, it has been the core document responsible for western civilization, which, in turn, has, in a relatively short amount of time, advanced mankind from mostly abject poverty, to levels of freedom that are unprecedented, and luxury that even kings a hundred years ago couldn't conceive of. As the core document, the instruction contained within the Bible must be of vital importance for societal cohesion, and the truth for living has to be examined to determine why.
  • Living a life without the idea of God justifies horrors inflicted on one another in a grand scale. He uses the Columbine shooting as a case study several times. Evidently, one of the shooters tried to write out why he felt the way he did before committing the heinous act. Pastors have been using those writings for years to warn against spiritual collapse. However, when the book views it through a psychological eye, then pairs up with a psychological view of the Bible, the results are sometimes bone-chilling. 
  • The psychology of the people of the Bible. We think of them mostly as 2D characters, there for a simple spiritual lesson in light of Jesus, then disposed of. The exploration as to the psychology of their experiences in terms of the Bible, the correction/path change in the Bible, then the circumstances under which we conduct ourselves today was illuminating. Of interest was the close examination of Cain and Abel. One of the things that was particularly illuminating was the need for self-reflection upon failure due to insufficiency. Cain's inability to do so led him to blame outside factors, and take "revenge" upon God by killing Abel. The psychology behind such actions is still with us today, and the book brings it out in vivid detail.
  • The need for Biblical sacrifice, wisdom and living, even in absence of the Bible as a divine document. This was a hard thing for me to deal with. It almost seems like Dr. Peterson (who, by his own account, hasn't made up his mind on the existence of God, but "acts like God exists"), is offering a substitute of Biblical wisdom for those that reject the Bible as the inerrant Word of God. One part of me thinks that this allows people to reap the benefits of living a principled, Godly life without being saved. However, the other wonders if this might be a gateway to get people in a Biblical frame of mind. I haven't resolved this yet.
  • Each chapter has a somewhat curious title that he explains, but he goes into Jack-Hayford level of background to get around to explaining the meaning (those from CoTW know what that means). The stories are at times interesting, tragic, playful, funny, and insightful. Usually a mix. 
Many have tried to pin certain political or spiritual motives to Dr. Peterson in light of this book, usually without reading it.

However, after listening to it, particularly with his emphases being read by the author himself, you realize that his only drive is to get to the truth of a situation.  He's extremely clinical about almost everything he approaches.

I would recommend this book, not as a "it is truth, and you must adhere to what it says", but from a "it will at times reinforce or challenge what you think" standpoint.

Saturday, April 07, 2018

The most inconsiderate Husband ever...

The most thoughtless birthing partner father ever.

(Please note:  I plan on being ultra supportive when Tabitha has our baby.  Inspiration just struck me here, so I thought it'd be funny to go with it.)

At around 3AM, Tab said she had her first real contraction.  She had been having Braxton-Hicks contractions for weeks now, but I had dutifully reminded her each time that it wasn't REAL labor unless they were closer together.

When she told me that they were around 10 minutes apart, I reminded her of what we learned in our birthing class, and that we needed to go in when they were 4 minutes apart.  Guesstimating in my head, I told her to wake me up when they were six minutes apart.

She became so antsy every time a contraction hit that I finally got up in a huff and slept out on the couch, despite it likely ruining the pace of my entire day.

I was awoken 3 hours later by Tabitha nudging me awake that they had finally reached six minutes apart.  I got up and trudged to the bathroom, indignant that she had broken up my sleep.  I took a long, hot shower and finally packed my bag for the hospital trip.

I got in the car, then proceeded to wait 10 minutes for her to gather her prepacked bag and get in.  Once she did get in, I asked if she had locked the door.  As she couldn't remember, I told her to hurry up and check, as she was keeping us from getting to the hospital.

While waiting in the lobby for Tab to park the car, I caught up with the news of the day, checked in to the hospital (I'm the mayor now on Swarm!), and made sure everyone on social media knew we were about to give birth.  As soon as Tabitha got back from the parking structure, she wanted to check in, but I had her wait while I set up the perfect selfie to commemorate the occasion. 

Checking in was fairly uneventful.  We went into the birthing triage room, and spent the next hour there.  The nurses were very attentive towards Tabitha, but refused to go into any depth as to the coffee offerings of the cafeteria below. 

After being demoralized about having to likely put up with substandard coffee, we finally got admitted to the delivery room around hour 7.  I decided that I needed a break, so I got into the relaxation tub.  Boy were they right!  This thing had jets, and even soothing lights to help calm you.  The only thing that ruined it was the screaming woman outside the bathroom.  I yelled for them to quiet it down.  After all, this was ME time.

The doctor came around and told us that if we wanted an epidural, this was the time to do it.  Tabitha said the pain was severe, and that she really thought she needed it. 

Fortunately, I was on hand to remind her, as well as tell the doctor, that we didn't want it, as we were trying to keep costs down on this birth.  "Remember what we said a month ago dear:  No sense going into debt because of this child."

After 13 hours, I told Tab to wrap it up, as the novelty was wearing off, and that, frankly, she was starting to look like an attention hog.

I'm guessing it worked because, after only an hour more, she finally began pushing.  They asked me to cut the cord, but I said no.  It looked unsanitary.

They asked Tabitha if she wanted the baby immediately.  She said yes, but, again, in order to keep things sanitary, I insisted they wash the baby off first.  It look goopy.

Before checking out of the hospital, they insisted that we have a baby seat in the car.  I unsuccessfully tried to argue that my parents didn't have a baby seat when I was brought home, I begrudgingly installed it.  Driving home, Tabitha insisted on sitting in the backseat, despite that this was the first time I actually wanted to talk with her, as she wasn't complaining about pain anymore.

Arriving home, I turned on the TV and returned to my Netflix queue.  I was drastically behind, and needed to really power through to get back on track.

Fatherhood is going to be great!

Thursday, November 30, 2017

So, this is a season of transition. A year and a half ago, I moved sites in my company, Tabitha is pregnant, she moved to a new job outside the company, we moved into a house, and my parents have moved next door.

To add to this all, it has become painfully obvious that my Mustang was not going to cut it in this new phase of my life. So, after 16 years, I decided to finally trade it in for something with a viable back seat. (I can just see the dirty jokes forming in your head)

Unloading all the stuff out of the car, I was hit with a flood of memories:

It was 2001. I was in the final quarters of my Undergrad, and decided to treat myself after a grueling six and a half years in College. I had destroyed my Saturn in a car accident a few months previous.

(Fun fact about the Saturn: My previous car, a Red Ford Probe, had a spacious backseat. The Saturn SC2 did...not... As I was the perpetual DD in college, every time Sev would emerge from the backseat, he'd say, "It's a boy!")

Wanting something with a little more pep, I bought a 1999 "Cinnamon" V6 Mustang with 30,000 miles on it.

One of my very close friends ridiculed me for getting it because, "that's the kind of car you get a girl on her sweet 16." My other friends teased me about getting a FORD ("Fix Or Repair Daily", "Found On Road Dead").

Over the course of the next year, I drove back and forth to Cal Poly Pomona from Woodland Hills 2-3 times a week to finish up my few remaining classes.

I graduated, and hung my tassle there until 2006-ish, when a drunken careless date yanked it down because, "you needed to get rid of that anyway." Upset, and, kinda angry, I threw it in the back, where it was tossed around until I found it last night.

In December of 2002, I got my Job at the Naval Surface Warfare Center Port Hueneme Division. For 3 and a half years, I drove from Woodland Hills to Port Hueneme (one hour each way), putting 100 miles on it every day.

On top of that, most of my friends were at Glendora Alliance Church, so I'd drive an additional hundred miles every weekend to see Matt, Angi, Cameron, Brian, and crew.

I remember a bleary Saturday, waking up in Shannon's house after my going-away party from NAVSEA with the worst hangover I've ever had. (Erik, Sev, and Derek know the one) The Mustang was a manual Transmission, so it was quite a feeling to be pissed at the clutch for being too loud. I packed that car up with all my day-to-day possessions (It wasn't much), then drove out to Goleta to work at my present job.

The next couple years were a blur. I would visit mom and dad in Woodland Hills, my brother John in Costa Mesa, I drove to Vegas twice to support Dennis at the Scottish Festivals, etc.

It was the car in which I made my initial trip up to Stanford to visit my good friend Eric, and started the annual trip to The Great Dickens Christmas Fairthat continues to this day (Next weekend, in fact!)

Then, in a hospital room in 2008, I met a girl. We dated, and she moved up here. For a long time, my Mustang was "the good car" that we'd take when we were trying to look spiffed up.

(Side note: I had promised Tabitha that I would teach her how to drive a manual when I was going to turn the Mustang in. I forgot to do that, and now both our cars are automatics. Oops.)

Despite the years, after 249,000 miles, the Driver's seat was somewhat thrashed, the center console no longer "clicked" close, and the steering wheel was starting to disintegrate. The evaluation at the dealership listed the color as "Was Red"



It was a good little car that gave me very few problems, and I'm sad to see it go. But life is continually about new beginnings, and I'm excited to see where this one takes me.

In a related note, if anyone wants a 1999 Mustang, with a quarter million miles on it, and a severely oxidized paintjob, please contact Toyota of Santa Barbara.